YESTERDAY ONCE MORE

Papa, bakit di ka na nilo-love ni mama?

Sa tuwing titingin ako sa apat na taong gulang na anak ko, naalala ko itong tanong niya. Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari. Kung paano yung 10 taon na pagsasama namin eh nabago lang sa loob ng isang araw.

Di ko sinabing wala akong kasalanan. May mga pag-aaway at hindi pagkakaintindihan madalas kapag may pamilya ka na.

Sabi nga nila. Love is not perfect. It is full of struggles. You just have to pick someone who is willing to struggle with you 'till the end.

Nang minsan nagkaron ng pagtatalo between my family's side and her inakala niya na hindi ko siya pinagtanggol. Sakin naman kinausap ko yung parients ko ng maayos kasi ayoko ng palakihin yung gulo pero di ko akalain na dun din pala magsisimula magbago ang lahat.

Dun nagsimula na manlamig na siya. Yung oras na hindi kami nagpapansinan ay naging araw. Yung araw naging buwan. At ngayon magha'Heartbreak Anniversary na.

Sinubukan kong kausapin siya pero masaya na raw siya na nagagawa niya gusto niya. At nag-request pa sya na hayaan siya and to give her some privacy, which i did, thinking she would later come to her senses. But I was the one who came to a realization that...

First, a woman would give and pour all of her love as long as you treat her right.

Second, they make the house feel home. They keep the marriage together, and of course, as long as you treat her right.

If you give her pain, stress, and take them for granted. They will endure it for as long as they can. But then, everything has its end. And when they said enough. Goodbye boy.

Now, we are still under the same roof, but we are not living together. We found a way to live without each other. It is obvious that it is never gonna be the same. Our priority is our child's well-being. We don't want him to feel that he is the reason why his parents are not okay.

But kids today are clever. My 4-year old just couldn't resist to ask why me and her mom are not sweet anymore. In fact, I sleep separate from them. I have my own space. I just couldn't help but hug her when I sleep next to her. Then itataboy ka. Parang pasko sa lamig.

So boys, for boys ah not men. Men know what to do already and they wouldn't be in this situation cause they know how to treat their Queens.

Para sa boys to, hanggat maaari i-trato niyo ang babae ng tama. Kung meron na kayong kasama na, alam niyo na dapat mag-stick through anything. Siya na yon. Wala ng bawian. Wag mo i-take for granted thinking na may bukas pa. You never know what you've got 'till it's gone.

Ako, ngayon, araw araw kong hinihiling sa diyos na sana bumalik pa kami sa dati. Yes kahit YESTERDAY ONCE MORE, Lord. Kahit isang araw lang ulit. Maramdaman ko lang uli na I am her man.

Yes, I am putting effort to win back my wife but the way I see it, malabo na. Lalo na if they get independent na. Sorry boy, G ka na!

So we ignore each other.

And pretend the other person doesn't exist.

But deep down.

We both know it wasn't suppose to end like this.

AsaBoy

2016

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