LDR

"I once asked myself this question, is this long distance relationship with you worth it?"

I bet everyone who experienced and is experiencing this kind of relationship would agree with me that this kind of situation is not that easy.

There are times where you'll think of giving up. There are a lot of couples who already gave up because they can't handle this type of relationship.

Yes it's hard, very hard. Being far from the person you love is heartbreaking. There are days where you long for their presence, for their hug, for their touch, but they're not there and you can't do anything about it. Every day is a struggle of living your life without them near you.

There are days where misunderstandings will happen. You will argue, fight, and might hate each other, but unlike other normal couples, you can't just easily go to where that person is, then kiss and make up. No it's not that easy. All you can do is text or call them many times, but you can't do anything about it if they ignore your calls.

Other people would say that long distance relationship won't work. They would probably ask why would you wanna be with someone whose miles and miles away from you, when you can have someone near. Someone who you can see personally everyday. Someone who would wipe your tears when you cry, hug you when you're cold, take care of you when you're sick, make you feel loved, and would always be there for you physically every day.

I guess other people won't understand why. But for us, those who are in this type of relationship would know. We'd rather have that person that we love no matter how far they are, than have someone else who's near.

But I must admit, it get's tiring as months and years pass by. You'll get tired of waiting for the day when you'll see each other again, and when will this long distance end. You'll get tired of all the arguments and miscommunications. You'll feel like you want to give up. You'll ask your self, is this still worth it?

I was on that moment, asking myself if what is best for us, should we still continue this or should we just end it?

Then I remembered that night when I was standing there, waiting for you to come. After a few minutes, I saw you walking down the stairs, wearing your red polo shirt. I approach you, you saw me then hugged me, and kissed me in the forehead. That's when I realized that yes, this is all worth it. That all those days spent without you, those days where I cry myself to sleep cause I miss you, those lonely nights where I wish you're here with me, all those days of waiting is worth it when I finally get the chance to be with you.

I've realized while you're holding my hand when we were walking around, that your hands are the only hand I want to hold for the rest of my life. When you hugged me, I remembered how good it felt to finally be in your arms, and I know I'm not gonna feel that way with someone else. I know that those months of waiting is nothing compared to that three short days that we were together.

I admit that I'm not perfect, and I'm probably not the best girlfriend a guy can have. I commit mistakes, I'm childish and immature at times, I get angry at little random things, I create dramas at almost every thing. I have flaws, and attitudes that would piss you off. But one thing is for sure, I love you with everything that I have. I'm imperfect, but I'm trying to be the best version of who I am for you.

So as long as you're holding on, I will still hold on too with what we have. That no matter how hard and mess up this gets, I will never give up on us. I will never get tired of waiting for the day where I can finally say "LDR no more".

Em

2017

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