STILL HERE

We're grade 8 nung naging jowa ko si B. Same school. And i remembered how his mother hates me. (his mother is a teacher) To the point na takot na takot ako mag snack during breaktime dahil sa pinagtitinginan na ako ng ibang teachers. Yung parang wala nang freedom sa campus. Yung parang detailed lahat sakanila bawat galaw mo. And i admit that it svcks. Pero mahal ko siya eh. Pinaglaban ko siya. Even though against ang parents nya saming dalawa pinaglaban ko siya. My family loves him so much. Yes, we are too young to be in love but maybe they are too old to understand our feelings. He makes me forget all the problems that we had. He makes me happy. And i badly mis that.

Grade 9 we're still in a relationship but not the same school anymore. He promised me na di niya ako iiwan. He promised na ako lang. Yes we're happy, i understand kung di na niya ako masyado mapuntahan dahilan ng busy sya. I didn't see it as a reason para magalit ako sakanya. Kase ate the first place ako yung nagpupush na pag igihan namin studies namin. Kahit puro rason okay lang. I admit i make a lot of mistakes din sa loob ng almost 2yrs. Pero lahat ng yon bumawi ako. Masaya naman kami. Okay naman kami. But then one day, bigla nalang nawala. Bigla nalang nagkaron ng problema. Bigla nalang naging bigdeal yung problemang pwedeng pag usapan. We broke up. Yes we broke up because i caught him cheating on me. Syempre nasaktan ako oo. Pero marupok ako. Kapag andyan sya nawawala nalang lahat. Pero hindi ko siya binalikan. Pero kapag andyan sya , parang kami ulit. That's the most confusing fact about us.

Akala ko okay na. November 2019, nagparamdam sya asking for me na balikan sya. Dahil marupok ako, unti unti na nya nakukuha ulit loob ko. Pero diko inasahang di nanaman siya magpapardam, hanggang sa may nalaman akong balita na sobrang masakit sa part ko. His ex girlfriend was pregnant. Nakakaguho ng mundo. Pero i take all the pain kase kasalanan ko naman na nagpadala ako. Now he is happy with them, with his own family. Yung family na pinagarap namin . Maybe , ako lang talaga yung nag handa sakanya para sa iba. Baka ako lang yung teacher nya para ihanda sya sa future nya. I hate that part. I build a man, but not for me. I love you. I still love you kahit ganto na yung sitwasyon. Desperada na kung desperada pero forst love never dies. sana naiisip mo din ako. I know mali na toh. but im still hoping for our happy ending my soldier

Now if you're reading this B. I'm still here for you. Maging masaya ka muna . Ipapaubaya kita. Pero once na nalaman kong sinaktan ka nila. I'll gonna get what's mine Funny, this is so desperate but i love you. miss na kita. miss ka na ng family ko.

deunan

first yr college

HRM

UST