To my TOTGA,
I still know that you are fond of this pages. Reading and following stuffs like this. Alam ko isang confession sayo galing. Alam na alam ko na ikaw yun at ako tinutukoy mo. I wasnt about to post this and made me think twice upon writing this down and you know naman that this isnt my thing. Pero its the only means na mabasa at makausap ka, you blocked me and you change numbers. Kahit kaibigan mo hindi ko mapakiusapan para lang macontact ka. Tama nga sila nasa huli ang pagsisisi. I took you forgranted when we were together.
I am an asshole. I fvck random girls for fun, flirt with anyone I could flirt with samantalang ikaw wala ka ginawa kundi mahalin ako at tanggapin nang paulit ulit.
Naalala ko pa nung una kitang niligawan. You're the most unique girl i have ever met. Wala kang kaarte arte sa katawan, one of the boys, you stand out in your class kaya nakuha mo agad ang atensyon ko. You gave me a chance na patunayan na im sincere about what im getting into. Being with you, being your boyfriend is a gift. Naalala ko pa pinakilala mo ako sa daddy mo at family mo. You are very certain sa akin. Nakakahiya ako kasi tinanggap nila ako. Welcome na welcome ako sa family niyo. Lahat ng effort mo yung ikaw nag aaral ka pa ako nagtratrabaho na every week you prepared my snacks with sticky notes on it reminding how hapyy you are to have me. Despite you being so faithful and effortful sa akin. Ano sinukli ko sayo.
Ako ito I party every night, do one night stand with any girl i met in the bar. Wala eh mayabang ako, gwapo, im well off. I thought i have everything and i could replace you anytime I want. Yung mas maganda, mas sexy and worthy of showing off. Nagdadamit ng girly. Naalala ko pa nung dapat nasa Singapore tayo for our first anniversary pinauna kita. Kasi i told you may meeting pa ko being the head engineer sa Office, naintindihan mo work ko. Napaka understanding at thoughtful amo. So you travelled alone and waited for me. Pero what did I really do that time is I just dated someone introduced by a friend, sino ba naman akong tatangi. Model si ateng. Pero naghintay ka pa din sa Singapore. Ito pa, ilang beses mo ko nahuling may alternate phone, dun ko nilalagay lahat ng babae ko pero pinapatawad mo ko. Ilang beses nacompromise ang pagaaral mo sa mga kag*guhan ko. Ang tanga tanga ko to waste my time on fooling around. Hinding hindi ko makalimutan paano ka naging part ng buhay ko. Isa pang katangahan ko yung dinala ko babae ko sa condo mo. I thought hindi ka pa uuwi. Sobrang nasaktan kita nun muntik na magfail yung standing mo as Cum Laude dahil sa katangahan . Oo g*go ako tarant*do and i dont deserve someone like you. Pero namanage mo ng maayos ang mga bagay. Sabi ko sa sarili ko hindi na kita sasaktan ulit. You graduated in top of your class proud na proud ako sayo. Pero ito nanaman ako Kailangan ko pumuntang Taiwan to help Daddy sa negosyo namin dun. Akala ko kakayanin ko . Umiral nanaman ang kag*guhan and that so called Li*og, ang daming magaganda dun nun. Nawalan ka din ksi oras sakin. Im just so stupid not to understand you. Nagpreprepare ka sa board exam nun. Akala ko napaka talino ko for you not to find out what im doing in Taiwan. Nasaktan nanaman kita. Nabalitaan ko tumigil ka mag aral nawalan ka ng drive mag review nun eh malapit na ang board exam mo i fled back to see you and say sorry. Pero you're a tough woman tinanggap yung apology ko pero you didnt take me back. You decided na maglet go. Nabalitan ko na lang Engineer ka na din Mahal. Proud na proud nanaman ako. Pero alam mo kung ano pinagsisihan ko nun . I knew you supposed to Top the exam but you got distracted on what i did. Sorry wala na talaga akong mukhang ihaharap sayo. I wish you well. I tried to move on without you. Dalawang taon na ang nakakalilipas iniistalk pa rin kita mahal. Ilang babae na dinate ko ilang girlfriend na dumaan sakin pero hindi ko mahanap yung pagmamahal na binigay mo. Hanggang isang araw my mom told me na you're just around the corner i took the chance na baka makita kita ulit baka love is sweeter the second time around. You reach out to me and I really love it being next to you. Pero ito nanaman ang TAWAG NG LIB*G, may nirefer sakin high class walker, ako naman si g*go pinatulan ko nanaman kasi akala ko friends na lang tayo. That night was superb. Worth the price. But i didnt know it would cost more than anything. Nasaktan nanaman kita. Ang g*go ko talaga. Sinayang ko nanaman yung chance na binibigay mo.
Ngayon masaya ka na and masakit sa akin kasi Im not the reason of that happiness anymore. You're moving on with your life plans without me and building your dreams with someone else. I really regret every moment I wasted with some random girls instead spending it with you. The life lessons Ive learn from you are worth keeping. Yung kagwapuhan, talino at pera it doesnt mean something anymore when you have no one to share it with. Kaya sana ingatan ka niya mahal wag kana papaloko sa tulad ko. Mayabang, matatamis na salita. Hanggang umpisa lang magaling. I hope you will find happiness in him.
Im now signing off as a certified babaero.
Hindi lahat ng engineer g*go at babaero pero maraming tulad ko. Piliin mo sino pagtitiwalan mo.
NASA HULI LAGI ANG PAGSISISI.
LALAKING SINAYANG KA
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