The Lost Soul

TheLostSoul
2010
Faculty of Pharmacy

"""That Selfish Bastard""

Isang tawag lang, kahit isang text. Di mo man lang binigay sa'kin.

I think i have found my soulmate. The one who does not have the qualities of the prince charming I dreamed as a child. He is perfectly imperfect. He reflected the flaws I have been trying to hide. He accepted for who I am. He is gone.

I was told that love, relationships, people, et cetera are complicated. Indeed they are. However, dito sa taong 'to, kahit isang segundo there was no tension. We were like kids in love ika-nga. We fight petty fights. We exchange sweet nothings. We judge people who walk by and just laugh at random stuff. Everything's perfect.

That's why it is so hard to move on. Nagpipilit akong umalala ng masasamang pangyayari pero wala talaga. I also tried casual stuff. Wala talaga.

I haven't cried ever since he committed suicide. Hindi pa nagsisink in sakin. It's almost a year. I'm still waiting for him. I don't know how I'll get through this. I keep asking myself, ""Was I not enough for him to hold on?"". He had a very complicated life indeed, pero how selfish can you be to leave me in this cold cold world? Or maybe I am the one who's selfish for thinking he hasn't gone through enough to justify him taking his own life. Hindi ko alam. Mababaliw na'ko.

I'm still hoping that the night his sister called me to say he's already dead is still a dream. Akala ko ba if you're gonna try to kill yourself, you'll tell me so I can join? "

Debutant

Debutant
2012
Faculty of Pharmacy

"Sa totoo lang, naiinggit ako. Naiinggit ako sa mga nakakatanggap ng surprises galing sa friends or bf. Yung isusurprise ka nila sa dorm mo. Or sa classroom may pakulo silang kakantahan ka, bibigyan ka flowers, gagawan kang video, etc. Ilang beses nakong naging part ng ganun. Yun nga lang parte lang ako, bibigay ng short message, eedit ng video, at tagakanta ng ""happy birthday"". Never pa ako naging center of attention dahil birthday ko.

Magdedebut nako sa May. Lagi kasing bakasyon yung birthday ko kaya diko pa to nattry yung masurprise. Never ko pa nga nakasama mga friends/classmates ko tuwing birthday ko eh. Di naman ako nagcocomplain na family ko lagi ang kasama ko, syempre natutuwa din ako, kaya lang yung experience na friends ang kasama mo sa birthday mo.. gusto ko rin matry yun. Lalo na kung pinag-isipan at pinagplanuhan nila yung surprise para sayo. Para kasing sobrang saya sa feeling ng ganun. Yung meron talaga nag-iisip paano ka nila mapapasaya. Tapos kilig na rin kung andun si crush noh :"">

haha. Ewan. diko rin alam ba't ko to sinusulat ngayon. Siguro kasi dala na rin na wala akong mapagsabihan. Baka kasi pag sinabi ko sa mga classmates ko, gagawin nga nila. Pero ano kaya yun, parang ako din naginitate. Edi parang wala rin. Gets nyo? sorry magulo.

So ayon. Sana talaga maexperience ko rin 'to. Hashtag Tiwala lang.
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P.S. NBSB din kasi ako kaya wala talagang magsusurprise sakin kundi friends ko. at si crush (sana)"

Kate Middleton

Kate Middleton
2011
College of Science

"Hi Admins! Me again. I hope you don't find me annoying but I hope you post this! I apologize kung medyo ginagawa kong parang lost and found area tong UST Files page but I don't know any other way to contact this person so please bear with me. Last na ito, promise!

PRINCE WILLIAM FROM ARKI! HAHAHAHAHAHA! I have no idea why I'm doing this but your reply to my first post was too funny to ignore! I hope you don't find me creepy. My friends who were with me the first time we ""met"" at the cafe told me that you seem like a sane person naman so they insisted that I reply to you and ask to meet you personally. So here I am............

I don't usually do this but why not! If you want to officially meet, you know where to find me. I'll be around the UST area on April 24 to fix some dorm issues with my roommates. If you're up for it, hopefully you are, let's meet up. I hope you don't mind if I bring my roommates along. Sobrang awkward ko kasi baka maweirdohan ka sa akin ng bonggang bongga. I still look the same as the last time you saw me. Same short hair, same short height unfortunately. We'll be there at 1 PM. Please go Kuya! I won't bite. And I promise I'm not some creepy ass stalker. Just think, new friends din iyon diba? You can bring your blockmates also para more fun in the Philippines.

So yeah. If you don't want to come okay lang din naman. I understand if my message creeps you out a little bit. I may come off a bit too forward and malandi but I’m not! Oh and if you've got a girlfriend and you're worried what she might think of our meeting, please tell her not to worry. I have no intention of stealing you from her. Wala akong balak ligawan ka okay! Baka mag-assume ka ulit HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA You can bring your girlfriend (or boyfriend if you're into that, I'm 100% okay with it) along on April 24! I'll wait for you.....but only for an hour 'cause my roomies and I might watch a movie afterwards

See you soon? If you decide not to come, well then I hope you stay sabaw and stay cheerful.

Blockmates and friends, kung kilala niyo ako please don’t tag me!!! Ate/Kuya Admin last na talaga. Sorry if you think I'm making the page my personal missing persons advertisment. But like I said earlier I can't contact him because ironically I didn't get his number when I first ran into him"

Prince William

Prince William
2011
College of Architecture

"First time na may nagpost tungkol sa akin, yung nakakahiyang storya pa anak ng.....hahaha

So ako yung kuya na nag-assume na si Ate Science ay hinihingi yung cellphone number ko sa isang cafe. Hindi pala. Pucha nakakahiya! Hindi ko alam kung bakit ang feeler ko nung araw na yun. Sadyang nabobo lang ako nun kaya ganun ang pagkakaintindi ko sa ""kuya yung number mo."" Nung nagsmile kasi ako kay Ate Science, nagsmile din siya ng onti kaya akala ko talaga seryoso niyang hinihingi number ko. Sayang.

Nung kinwento ko sa blockmates ko pagkaakyat ko malamang tawang tawa sila di ba? Sinuggest din nilang lapitan ko si Ate Science sa table niya at tanungin man lang name niya, OR, ibigay ko daw talaga yung cellphone number ko. Alaws e, natorpe ako. Pero to Ms. ""KATE MIDDLETON"" from the College of Science: Sana hiningi mo na lang talaga number ko nun

Tambay ka ulit sa Cafe ** tapos iiwan ko ulit number ko sa cashier, basta dapat ikaw ulit tumawag sa akin. Hahahahaha pucha demanding e no? Hope to run into you again soon
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PS: I'm from Arki by the way, not CFAD"

Kate Middleton

Kate Middleton
2011
College of Science

"I was at a certain cafe somewhere in P Noval. I had just finished ordering and was chilling by the cashier while waiting for some seats upstairs. While waiting, there was a guy (pretty sure he's from CFAD) who ordered. After ordering he immediately went upstairs. He was in a hurry I guess so he forgot to get the plastic number thingy from the cashier, para alam ng barista kung kaynino iseserve yung order. The cashier tried to call him but he didn't hear. Since I was standing near the staircase I called him out myself.

Me: Kuya yung number mo
Kuya: **smiles** Uhhh...ano?
Me: Yung number mo.....
Kuya: Seryoso?
Me: I mean yung number mo......para sa order mo....nasa cashier

HAHAHAHAHA I'm guessing he thought I was asking for his cellphone digits! Ayun. He thanked me and then laughed and got his number from the counter. After 10 minutes of waiting, my friends and I finally got a seat......and it was across Kuya CFAD's table. When I got there he smiled and waved at me. His friends were laughing so I think CFAD guy shared the story to his buddies na.

Wala lang just wanted to share this! Sobrang daming nasabaw na students because of finals week and Kuya CFAD's one of them. Hi Kuyaaaa! Happy summer, Thomasians! Hopefully walang singko! "