HEAL
I am a long-time reader sa USF since sa unang page pa lang nila. One time while reading confessions here, napadpad ako sa post dito na "How do you fight the trauma of cheating?" And bigla na lang tumulo ang luha sa mga mata ko. Because even me don't know how to fight with this trauma.
Wala na kami pero 'yung sakit at trauma sa ginawa niyang panloloko ay nandito pa rin. Hindi lang once but twice kaya sobrang sakit lang. Siguro sasabihin ng iba na "ang tanga mo naman pinatawad mo pa nung una" naniniwala kasi ako na lahat tayo ay deserve ang second chance, and I thought he deserves it. He was my first love. He was my first na I thought to be my last. I thought he's the one. Sobrang daming pangarap na binuo na akala ko sabay naming bubuuin. But still for the second time around, this happened.
I cry myself just to sleep at night. Fooling my heart na paggising ko ay wala na 'yung sakit. But I just always see myself waking up in the morning crying again. Sa totoo lang, I'm so tired of crying. I want this feeling to be over. I want to be able to live happily because this isn't a life I am praying for. Pero hindi madali, but still I will try step by step, one day at a time. Maybe soon kaya ko na makalimutan lahat and to forgive him.
For the person who can relate and to everyone who had their own pain, these days and months may be rough but we are tough. We will all HEAL in God's grace. Things may not go back to normal but in God's will, we will all rise up stronger than the usual. I know soon, magugulat na lang tayo na ang gaan na ng loob natin. Wala ng bigat, malaya na, at nakapagpatawad na.
Surely, healing is coming our way. We were going to be happier that we've ever been. Claim it! In Jesus Name 

Then Jesus said,
"Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest." -Matthew 11:28
Roswell A.
2021
BSChE
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